What is that makes me "Awkward"?

I hardly ever leave the house because my social anxiety disorder, I constantly say like so and um, I sometimes get caught up in what I'm going to say so I like pause like "wait, ......no wait, ugh! i can't speak today (laugh)", i constantly hunch over, sometimes when i speak its high pitched as if i'm trying too hard to be easy to talk to, my social skills are okay i guess like i know what is right from wrong, sometimes whenever i talk its a struggle just to get one word out, whenever im at the store if i see something i want but am unsure about getting it i will kinda pace around it before i get it or it will take me ten minutes to decide whether i want it or not, i have no sense of humor (cuz of depression), i hardly ever smile, look really....blah all the time, i never live up to my potential, i'm spacey like hardly ever in the here and now, etc.